I wish sometimes I could just open up.
Just spew out every emotion and thought with no filter in mind, and not care who I was hurting.
I wish that my voice could be as easily heard as my writing can be written.
If you want something, then you go for it, well I know what I want.
Although what if that something you want is out of your reach and you’re just scared to go for it? Scared to take a step forward in fear of just being pushed away.
So, I just hold my self, I just glue my mouth together and that is that. And then I am just left with the regrets to sit in my mind: of what I could have done, what I should have done, but I didn’t, because I am a coward.
It is my voice, so use it right? After all what harm can you do? People forcing you to speak all the time, giving you a chance to open your mind and let everything unfold, giving you the chance to be hones.
And I just let moments like that pass me by, with simple one syllable words, because I am to scared to be faced with fear and rejection.
Already knowing the answers, so why do I bother to speak up, voicing something for change, but why? When it wont be changed. I understand that, I get it.
I just don’t want that.
I know, I know
“You don’t always Get what YOU want.” *sigh*